My pleasure~

Monday, 5 June 2017

She Remove.


She started again,
With new hope and new dream,

After release from rehab, she changes her identity.
Change her name, change her look, remove to another country.
And hopefully, she can change her life story too.

She want to finish her school,
Get a good job,
get a new family.

A family that she dreams off,
every single day.

Lucy miss her mother, Mrs. Amanda.
bubble cloud popup from her head,
recall all memories that they create together.
sweet later it changes to pain.

Plup plup plup
the bubble exploded.
she shakes her head. Now
She arrive at Shibuya Station

Japan is her new home now! 

Tuesday, 7 March 2017

To The People I Walked Away From, I Apologize by Angelo Caerlang

When I find myself stuck in the wrong story, I still try to make things work with the people I’m surrounded with. I still try to close the gap and break the walls that separate me from them. I still try to patch the holes in our broken relationships.
But sometimes, I reach a point when I grow tired of trying to seal what’s broken. I grow tired of being frustrated, angry, and upset.
When things get out of control, the easiest alternative I see is to leave and walk away. Because I don’t see the point in repairing a bond that is slowly sinking. I don’t see the reason to stay when every day my feelings are getting hurt. I don’t see why I should not quit, and start somewhere else.
In the process of walking away, I tend to hurt people, too. I act like their feelings don’t matter to me. I act like they deserve to be in pain as well. I act like all along I am the victim, and everyone else is the villain.
Eventually I realize I’m wrong, and selfish. And I apologize.
I apologize to everyone I left behind. I apologize to everyone I offended, and wounded.
I am sorry for saying what was on my mind without considering whether my argument would make someone go home with a swelling heart. I am sorry for letting down everyone who believed in my potentials. I am sorry that I still chose to leave, even though a lot of people were rooting for me to stay.
I have learned that the choices we make in our lives bring us exactly to where we are right now. I have learned that whether we make the right decision or the bad one, in the end, it teaches us to become stronger and wiser.
I have learned that time is always our number one best friend. Time helps us to heal all our wounds. Time allows us to grow in our own ways.
I realize now that I can’t completely move forward in my life if I still hang on to the bitterness that I carried from my past.
And so I have forgiven everyone I walked away from. I have forgiven myself. And I hope that you have forgiven me, too.  
I hope that one day we can all come up to the conclusion that the direction everyone was expecting me to take was different from what I wanted for myself. I hope that one day, when we all look back, we remember each other for all the great times we shared, rather than the horrible ones. I hope that one day our paths will intersect, and by then I wish that we can be friends.
I have wholeheartedly accepted the place and situation that I am in right now. Slowly by slowly, I am beginning to bring back my happiness and my confidence. Slowly by slowly, my life is starting to unfold, and bring me closer to where my dreams want me to be.
I have learned to swallow my pride and admit that I am wrong. Because there is nothing sweeter than living with a light heart that is free from guilt and anger.
There is nothing better than to let go.
I have found the light that leads me to my purpose. I have found the voice that I can use to inspire people. I have found the reason to live a life that I can be proud of.
And by forgiving, I think I can genuinely smile again, starting today.