Peter

Peter cry so loud,
He try to kill him self several time
but the doctor manage to keep his life.

Peter condition getting worse
He possessed by the devil.
He scream and cry at the same time.

Peter keep mention Lucy name,
over and over again.
He said Lucy wont forgive him,
Lucy keep hunting him everyday since 15 years ago.

"I cant handle it anymore,

sometime die is the best way to escape,

die is the solution for sinner like me.

let me go to hell,

let me go to hell....!!!!!"

Peter repeated that word over and over again
and keep write it on the wall in his cell.

Peter cant accept this torture anymore
He want to die.

Wide Smile

Kids running, wide smile on their faces~
Happy.

Today I run,
Im looking the wide smile on my face too,
but i cant find it.

Where is my Wide Smile?
Where i put??

I try looking my wide smile in the boxes under my bed.
I open the box and i find a book.
The old book that i wrote when i was young.
The book that i get from my 10 year old birthday.

I open the book and i read it.
It hilarious when i try to tell everything inside the book.
I keep read it until the last page of the book.

Suddenly i realize this hand writing was not mine,
Written by someone to me.

Dear Sweetheart, 

       please forgive me, i know when you grow up you will be looking for your wide smile. Im sorry to snatch it from you. Im sorry to making damage on you. 

my regret,

PETER  

People don't get~

 

it easy,
that what people say,
get a life, move on.

Asshole!

It not easy as you think,
it cost half of your live.
Half of your emotion,
half of you.

People don't get,
because they don't feel.

If walk away is easy like you say
I don't need half of me die together
with the damn memories.

I hate to admit but it was.
hey! who are you to judge me?
who are you?
hey i'm asking
who are you?

to be honest,
I don't know either.
im stuck.
I wish I can move forward
and never look back,
but if I did.......

I go for good.


 

Man (Kingson)

That man still attract my attention,
seriously
and I don't know why,

Every time I saw him,
he remind me to someone,
someone that keep playing in mind.
it crazy I know.

It like walking in the dark,
It something,
something that I cant explain.
and I don't know how to explain.

Dear someone,

            I find a guy exactly like you. I know it sound crazy but yeah it is. Maybe I still live in your shadow, the best place to escape. I try my best to move on to build a new kingdom but..... it not easy as I think. It take a lot or energy and hard work. I still work on it.

 

Man

There is a man..
wearing a black suite with a black tie and a black leather shoes.
Short haircut with the thin beard and a killing smile.
wearing a spectacles and black Tissot watch.
Nice scent from Terre D'hermes.

He always holding a book,
and I assume that he like to read.

There are few time he caught me when I secretly peeping his eyes.
Yeah.. his beautiful eyes.
His eyes is the most beautiful creation that I ever see

He just smile when our eyes bump each other.
maybe he think that I'm a nutter
nutter lady who like staring people.

to be continue.........

Dream

I sit at the corner of the café,
Drink a cup of coffee while waiting for someone,
There are emptiness here, somewhere in my chest.

I think im waiting for something to full fill my chest.
Sit alone at the corner while drink coffee dose not change anything.
I think I must do something.
so I get up and leave this place.

I keep walk and walk and walk
until I feel hurt on my chest and my feet.
My heart beat fast.
I think im tired enough to walk to think and to do anything
so I stop at the middle of the highway.

Stop to think, stop to walk, and stop to breath!

I drowning in the cloud of human.
no space no air.

oh.. It just a dream. I still here.

 

Bicara Sialan

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Benar kau bijak,

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